Wednesday, February 27, 2008

Bell's Palsy

I really don't understand why shit keeps happening to me. Sunday night I went to the ER because I couldn't feel my face. Something was way off.

Our town is a hick town. Drunks, drug addicts, all around crazy people. I got stuck in the waiting room with them. One woman brought her whole damn family (and more kept showing up) while she sat there and screamed at people and hacked bloody phlegm in an emesis basin as LOUD as she could. Gross. A guy came in who was so incredibly sick he had to keep going outside to chat on his cell phone and kept coming back inside bitching about the wait while his girlfriend was sitting there pale, shaking, and just ghastly looking. She went back long before he did, he was none too pleased.

The transport guy who took me to CT before I got a room was a complete jerk. He decided he would bitch to me about how his "bitch of a coworker" faked sick and he was the only transport person in the ER that night. Then he proceeded to say "damnit why don't you smile" to me, to which I responded that I couldn't and to please just leave me alone. I didn't want to be rude to him but I just wasn't enjoying his company at all. Good thing my CT scan only took a few minutes.

I got a room finally and waited around for a doctor who was really great, and diagnosed me with Bell's Palsy. The right side of my face is pretty much paralyzed. I had NO IDEA that the ear pain and disgusting taste in my mouth that I'd been having for a few days was really the beginning of Bell's Palsy but alas, it was. I got prednisone and valtrex and was about to be sent on my way when they decided they wanted to take my BP. The HORROR associated with that is something I won't soon forget. The cuff just kept INFLATING. My arm turned blue and I got the pins and needles feeling in my arm and it just kept inflating. The nurse kept saying "relax your arm or it'll just get tighter!" I know she meant well, but relaxing your arm when it feels like something is about to crush it just doesn't happen easily.

By that point, I'd had enough. Overwhelmed by the fact that I had a paralyzed face and the blood pressure cuff leaving red marks all over my arm that are still there, I cried. I have a feeling when I left the 2 nurses were laughing at me for crying over a BP cuff, but I really don't care. I love MOST nurses, my best friend is a nurse, but there comes a point where it just becomes too much to handle all at one time.

On top of everything else, my grandmother was admitted to the hospital today. NOTHING seems to be going right for me anymore. Sometimes I just want to give up.

I took some pics of what the BP cuff did to my arm, but it's kind of hard to see because I was trying to take the pics of my own upper arm. It's harder than I thought.

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Pilonidal Troubles Continue

After having a wound that refused to heal and after seeing 3 different surgeons in the area, I ventured 2 hours away to see a Dr. who specializes in the Bascom Cleft Lift. I had this surgery January 7th. Everything went well until recently when I keep developing superficial holes. The surgeon is absolutely great and he's doing everything he can. I don't understand why my body keeps doing this to me.

Sunday, August 12, 2007

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Thursday, August 9, 2007

3 months...

It's been 3 months today since my pilonidal cyst was removed. 3 long months, and I'm still not healed. I seem to be progressing backwards. I have 2 open wounds, one very small hole at the top then a bridge of skin, and a larger open wound at the bottom. The top hole was pretty much healed until recently. It opened up again and is 2mm deep. The bottom hole hasn't made any progress in healing for a month now. It's looking more like I'm going to need a flap surgery to fix it. Of course, school starts on the 29th and it'll take probably until that week to get scheduled for another surgery.

It's very depressing waiting and hoping for something to heal like this. I haven't been able to do anything all summer. I went to the beach with my friends one day which was a fiasco and caused the top hole to reopen. My parents had to drive 2 hours to come pick me up while I sat in an unairconditioned dining area of a Burger King on the boardwalk. The constant pain and itching has driven me absolutely crazy. The paranoia that there is blood on my pants or bed is awful. I never want to see anyone, and I'm alienating my own family. I don't know how much more of this I can take without losing it completely. The worst part is that I've managed to get even fatter since I can't do anything and I'm scared to do the things that I probably could do.

Thursday, July 19, 2007

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Saturday, May 26, 2007

It;s been awhile...

...since I've posted. I know. Not like I have a plethora of readers to please or anything. First, an update on me and my lovely pilonidal. A few of my sutures broke apart on their own. I honestly didn't even notice those. This past Sunday I had some really bad pain at the top of the incision, more pain than I had felt in the 11 days since I had the surgery. I went to my 4 year old cousin's birthday party on Saturday and I was pretty active there so I thought maybe I was just sore from it being the first time I was really up and moving around. I had my follow-up visit with my surgeon Monday morning. It was a damn good thing I did. He noticed that at the very top of the wound there was a large pocket of fluid that was ready to burst. He cut the top 2 sutures open and the next thing I feel is a rush of warm fluid running out of me. It was blood.

He had told me before the surgery that something like this could happen with all the blood rushing to heal the wound and having nowhere to go. He didn't tell me that he would be exploring it after he cut the sutures open. He was poking around searching for any sign of infection with a sharp metal thing, and I had no local anesthesia. He then packed it with dry gauze. Oh my god I don't know how I did it. He said I took the pain better than most grown men he's treated. I have visiting nurses coming out now to pack it everyday and I may be getting a wound vac. At least they pack it with WET gauze. He could've moistened the gauze for me!

Other than the craziness of having a nurse over everyday, things are pretty much the same. I was at least able to get an extension for the semester to turn in all my work. The bad part is my math instructor gave me no other options but to file a formal complaint. She claims I earned an "F" in her class and told me I had failed certain chapter tests. I looked at the online grade book and unless an 80 is failing then she's sadly mistaken. She also claimed I never turned things in and she "didn't get" my emails asking if she received the work that I sent. I hate instructors who think they are God. They always seem to be math instructors too, oddly enough. I calculated my grade based on the grade book online and I should have a high "C" or a low "B" in that class. I emailed her about it and of course she's not willing to look again or check her junk mail folder to see if the emails I sent ended up there. Good thing I have copies of all the emails I sent her and all the emails she sent me and the dates and times on all of them.