Lego Me!

3 months...

It's been 3 months today since my pilonidal cyst was removed. 3 long months, and I'm still not healed. I seem to be progressing backwards. I have 2 open wounds, one very small hole at the top then a bridge of skin, and a larger open wound at the bottom. The top hole was pretty much healed until recently. It opened up again and is 2mm deep. The bottom hole hasn't made any progress in healing for a month now. It's looking more like I'm going to need a flap surgery to fix it. Of course, school starts on the 29th and it'll take probably until that week to get scheduled for another surgery.

It's very depressing waiting and hoping for something to heal like this. I haven't been able to do anything all summer. I went to the beach with my friends one day which was a fiasco and caused the top hole to reopen. My parents had to drive 2 hours to come pick me up while I sat in an unairconditioned dining area of a Burger King on the boardwalk. The constant pain and itching has driven me absolutely crazy. The paranoia that there is blood on my pants or bed is awful. I never want to see anyone, and I'm alienating my own family. I don't know how much more of this I can take without losing it completely. The worst part is that I've managed to get even fatter since I can't do anything and I'm scared to do the things that I probably could do.